M.E. and me

I can always tell (written on a blackberry at 4am)

Posted on 5/12/2010 at 3:16:29 PM

I can always tell when my period is coming.
Everything slows down.
Its like all the energy is going there. My body becomes
slow andfinds it hard to function. Its almost as if
I'm constantly walking and moving in water and have
that resistance to beat.
There is also the extreme period pain; my thighs
ache, my arms ache -I can feel that I've been
fighting through that water.
Its 4.30 in the morning. I've just had some wheetabix
and wanting to settle down to sleep. I'm going to
sleep, as my family are waking up.
Its an inconvenience. You could see it in a number of ways;
1: it passes the time till they get home,
2: well I like the space but it would be nice to see them or
3: I would do anything to be waking up now and going to work.
I have chronic fatigue syndrome.
My body is tired.
I am tired.
I become tired by simply walking to the bathroom.
By the way I feel I can tell you that my period
will start tomorrow.
I can tell you that I'm going to be asleep for most
of the next three days and each time wake up feeling
exactly as I feel now. I can tell you lots of things,
but my brain won't allow it.Its all the tip of my
tounge, I just make the connection. If Michael Fish
where to describe my brain, it would be overcast
and foggy. A head fog. I get them a lot.
Most days, along with a searing crippling headache.
I walkdownstairs and my muscles ache as if I've just
run a marathon. I can't write anymore.
I need to sleep.
It will be light,
dreamy and un refreshing.
Night night x