M.E. and me
Ok so they arnt really short, more knee lenght but they are shorts! Yes! Today I purchased a pair of shorts. And wore them with pride. My pasty pale pins got some air and a slight tan. The only problem is that they are cotton and when I drove down to ipswich is was a [...]
I’ve reached my enough is enough point. My self worth and esteem reached rock bottom yesterday and I’m not tollerating that. The fact I have to proove that I’m ill to the government, attend meetings to arrange ‘disability and illness support’ no. Jog on. I didn’t ask for this life so why should I live [...]
There are five songs i’m constantly listening too at the moment.
These are the following:
Passion Pit- Sleepy Head
Pendulum – Watercolour
Faithless – Not Going Home
Owl City – Fireflies
Feeder – Just the way i’m feeling
My song is: Sleepyhead -
This song kind of descrives how I feel half the time, like when I’m in a headfog and then suddenly [...]
Im feeling quite low at the moment. I’m not sure why, just incredibly frustrated, fed up and upset with my whole situation. I don’t want to be in bed anymore infact I actually hate being in bed. I want to be out, working and with my friends. I feel as if im in the blackest [...]
I just read a news article about Sophia Mirza. (Read it here). Sophia died from ME in 2005. This was the first time in the UK that ME was the cause of death.
ME is being ignored. It is being treated with drugs for mental illness’ – indeed I am being treated with antidepressants. I admit [...]
I saw Mr T today! (finally). And I am so proud of myself. I didn’t eat a scrap of junk food (i.e. McDonald’s burger king etc). We actually had a proper meal yay-go-us-high-five! We went to Frankie and Benny’s omnomnomnomnom. I had steak and chips and he had this ENORMOUS burger that was the size [...]
Last night, I had an allergic reaction. I have no idea what to but i have a feeling it was to that brown furry thing that lives in my kitchen that might have rolled in something smelly. But if that is the case, i can now say that I had an allergic reaction to ’something [...]
Basically, I’ve promised Mr T a cake. In my eyes, this cake will make or break me. It will either improve our relationship, friendship and any other kind of ship you can think of, or destroy it forever.
I’m not going to beat about the bush.
I CANT COOK.
At all.
I consider a pot noodle a gormet meal. [...]
I can always tell when my period is coming.
Everything slows down.
Its like all the energy is going there. My body becomes
slow andfinds it hard to function. Its almost as if
I’m constantly walking and moving in water and have
that resistance to beat.
There is also the extreme period pain; my thighs
ache, my arms ache -I can feel [...]